May 27, 2007


well too start I had a bad Friday! I went to Sally's and some how almost killed her computer ~ sorry, again! And we had a issue with #1 and some kids at the park. He was crying which of course made me cry! Then as we was getting the issue taken care of I started crying again - UGH!

I HATE crying! My eyes get all red about an inch around my actual eyeball - Darkside says I get raccoon eyes LOL! But also my eyes change colors too. They change from blue to almost an ice blue/grey color which makes me look weird.

But when I get all hormonal I can't stop crying and this is how I was on Friday. It sucked!

Everything I thought I had a firm grasp on just kinda blew up in my face - this isn't a good thing! But I think I got it all under control now. I REALLY need to stop second guessing myself!


But on another front - since I got a new firm grasp on that I figured what the hell - let tackle some new things LOL! It's the turmoil that I thrive on.

So we're supposed to go visit some old friends this coming weekend - this should be FUN!! We got all kinds of good things planned

And to prepare for this trip I went researching online for some ideas - WHOA! Let me just say that for one I LOVE THE INTERNET! yes still lol!

But also - have you ever noticed that until someone tells you a name for something you just assume well I'm weird/different/quirky? But once you hear a name for it and it's explained your like - HEY that's me! And then you feel like wow I belong.

Well I had a similar experience while researching. Except mine was cause I read a new definition for a term that I already knew. When I was done - in 3 instances! - I thought wow that explained me! Cool huh?!

dontcha just wish I'd tell ya what I was reading LOL! not a chance on here! if inquiring minds want to know then you'll have to message me


oh yeah and ya know what else? I SEE YOU! I know people out there are reading my stuff and let me tell ya it'd be nice to hear a hi, how are you every once in awhile - private or in the open, makes no difference.

had to get that off my chest, so - now you know I see you and I know I see you - we're all good! HA!

Currently listening :
Greatest Hits
By Guns N' Roses
Release date: 23 March, 2004

May 20, 2007


well I've had a good day today! we got up early & went to yard sales, then went to Jerseyville. I got the kids some really nice clothes and I only spent about $12!

also today we made a decision - about time eh? LOL! we're going up to visit some friends of ours in about 2 weeks - WOO HOO!! we also decided that we're gonna move back to Iowa next year - YEA! so with this trip we're gonna kinda get the feel of Des Moines - not too sure how we'll like it but it's worth a shot. worse case scenerio we will have a good time with our friends, buy some cheap cigs in MO, and get lost once or twice!

I was talking to Robyn today and she told me she was thinking about my dad recently - ahhh! =) She said she can remember that dad called me Annabelle. I reminded her that not only did my dad call me that but her dad did too! She was laughing her ass off about how my dad always called her RobinEgg. =) She's all into a site right now that's centered around fitness and wants me to get into it too - things don't change LOL! I joined up and now to keep with it =)

I'm now doing Sally's site & John's - WOO HOO!! Getting there. Now to just get paid to do em! Oh and still getting Darkside's site up - NEVER ENDING!

that's all for now.......
Currently listening :
Vol. 3: The Subliminal Verses
By Slipknot
Release date: 25 May, 2004

May 17, 2007


well it does! this hasn't been a great week or even month for us. Here's what all has happened -

to start with Darkside's job sucks! His hours are all over the place & very few at that! Like I'm talking anywhere from 20 to 40 hours in 2 weeks! UGH! And he also is supposed to be getting his big quarter raise this month for working there a year - whoopee. Especially when min wage will go up on 7/1 to a higher amount than that!

Then my mom She's somehow managed to get a truck - a 4X4 extended cab w/ shell - that works fine! - on payment with no down payment or even set payments!!! This has been a bitter pill for me to swallow gracefully!

PawPrint is pregnant AGAIN!! it's probably too soon so they might die too! side note - our cat PawPrint who just turned a year old last month had a liter of kittens that were born too early (1 month along) and they all died - 8 in all. It's sad cause you can't do anything but just sit there.

Darkside's idol has fallen in his standings with Darkside. This was a sad day too.

We got a side job painting the outside of a building (got a couple other things to do there too). This is the building that I want to buy - UGH!

Plus to top it all off - I believe we have come to the sad realization that maybe we should of moved back to Iowa in Feb. This has been the most difficult. Cause last year we thought about it in May also.

I've become soft with taking chances & moving - that's all. Cause ya know it's scary to take everything you have and go to a place where you know there's a good chance you won't make it. Especially when your sitting in a house that you almost own, with employment (however shitty!) in place.

Plus we really miss our old friends that moved up there last Aug. It was really nice to have other people to drink with that had kids too - not even counting all the other things in common! Also with them gone - no roleplaying We was kinda getting back into it after not doing it for about 5 years.

Yea it's cry for me day LOL!

Um some good things about this week -

we've been going to bed early & getting up early.
Got the chicken coop done - looks GREAT!
This friday we're supposed to have a cookout - WOOHOO! I'm planning on getting smashed LOL!
I just found a good program for Darkside to burn all his movies he d/l'ed.
I've bought some cheap cigs from MO - WOOHOO! Saved about $70!!
We've set up a meeting place to visit with some friends & my brother in Iowa so we're not just down here in the dark. It'll be fun too!
Bought Darkside his very own 1st domain!! and we almost got it up and going over there.
Sally's website is almost ready too - WOOHOO!!

all in all I guess it'll be ok but very aggravating!
Currently listening :
Deaf Pedestrians
By Deaf Pedestrians
Release date: 06 September, 2005

May 10, 2007

IQ test

IQ Test Score

messing around tonight =)
pretty damn smart, eh?

Currently listening :
By Static-X
Release date: 03 April, 2007

May 4, 2007

sex quiz

Sex by ranndouglas
How old were you the first time?: 12
Who was it?: Brian
Did you like it?: no too quick
Do you regret it?: nope!
How old were you the first time you masturbated?: 12
How frequently do you do it?: 0 anymore
Do you fantasize or think about someone specific?: nope
Do you watch porn?: yep
How often?: all day long
With someone or alone?: usually w/someone
Where is your favorite place to masturbate?: in the bath (was)
Have you ever had sex with someone you met online?: nope
Why or why not?: -
Is sex a sin?: NO!
Why or why not?: cause it's a natural thing
How many one night stands have you had?: lots!
What is your preference: men or women?: men
Have you ever had sex to make your partner happy?: yes
Have you ever had sex to make your partner shut up?: yes
Have you ever had angry sex?: yes
How soon after you've met someone do you know you want to have sex with them?: about 5 minutes
Have you ever had a 3some?: yes
A 4some?: yes
Been involved in an orgy?: not yet
Have you ever gone to a swingers club (even if you didn't participate)?: not yet
Do you like to role play?: of course! D&D 3rd ED rocks!
Do you like to dress up or wear sexy clothes?: sure
Do you have any sex toys?: yep
Do you use them alone or with a partner?: w/ a partner
Where is the strangest place you've had sex?: in the middle of a party
Is there anything you won't do, sexually?: nope
Did this survey make you uncomfortable?: nope
Would you really post these answers on you profile?: yep! well - blog
Have you ever told someone you loved them just to get them to sleep with you?: no
Do you cuddle after sex or go to sleep?: depends
Have you ever paid for sex?: no
Would you pay for sex?: no
Have you ever been paid for sex?: not technically - please explain the whole dating scene again?
Would you accept money for sex?: in a heartbeat!
Have you ever had a sugardaddy/mama?: yep
Did you have to have sex with him/her?: nope!
What celebrity would you have sex with if you had the chance?: Bill Gates!
Is there anyone you regret sleeping with?: nope
Have you slept with anyone on your friends list?: yep
Was it good?: the best
Would you do it again?: of course!
What is your least favorite position?: woman on top
Why?: did it tooo much
Have you ever faked an orgasm?: yes
Why?: was taking too long - faked the 3rd one
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Currently watching :
The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy - Billy and Mandy's Big Boogey Adventure
Release date: 03 April, 2007