been forever & family

It's been quite awhile and lots has happened - some of it is trivial and some HUGE. Hopefully as things calm down more I can tell a few of the stories.

One reason I've been slacking on posting is because with my new computer when I go to type up a blog using the blogger compose box it won't space correctly. So I spend most of my time editing and pushing arrows to get where I need to be -- it SUXS! maybe I'll try IE next......

But there is one thing I really need to get off my chest though. So tonight as I put off going to bed (again), I'll share this with you =)

At the beginning of this month I went looking for my half brothers & sisters on facebook. Believe it or not I found 2 possibly 3 of them! I was sooo shocked! So I messaged and asked them to be my friend.

Going into this I figured that my half brother Nick would at least add me & talk to me because when I was young he came and visited. Actually he visited for awhile but then for some reason he stopped coming by. At the time I really didn't treasure it for what it was but that is the way of kids.

Also going into this I figured that my other half brother Chris was dead -- this is what we had been told years ago by Nick and why lie about something like that? And I was also pretty sure that my 2 sisters wouldn't want to ........ I don't know - do anything, something like that?

Although you can probably see where this is going -- let me tell it! LOL!

Almost immediately my brother rejected me and still hasn't replied. Oh well, his loss! I really wish it wasn't like this but I've done what I can - a person can only do so much.

The older of what I believe is my half sisters still hasn't approved or denied me.

But the younger of my 2 half sisters approved me & replied! I was so happy! We exchanged a few messages and each time I was beside myself with JOY! But I couldn't think of what to say LOL! So I went with honesty and told her that and she replied with the same type of thing.

I was so happy that I'd finally got a chance to talk to her! It was also nice that I could be honest with her and not offend her and it was ok not to have constant useless chatter. I was so happy that I really can't explain it.

I figured I would think of something to sit and talk to her about in time. But there was just so much going on and not enough time to sit and think.

So it's been about 3 weeks and I noticed I hadn't got any status updates from her and I got worried. (still nothing I could think of to talk about tho)  I went to go see what her last update was - you know maybe she went on vacation or something? I get so many updates from all kinds of people, games, & groups - maybe I missed it, ya know.

So.... I go to look at BAM! she removed me! I was so shocked I reloaded the page. I couldn't believe it.

And of course then I could think of a million things I wanted to ask her about.

But I had made myself a promise that I would not push if they didn't want contact. I continually have to remind myself that I - CAN - NOT - CONTROL - EVERY - LITTLE - THING. this is hard for me to remember =)

my heart hurts so much now though.
it aches for the sister I never had.
it aches for the sister I thought I had re-discovered.
it aches for missed opportunities. 

awwww...........pooey! I'll get over it =)

It's just life after all - can't be too hard.        HA!

later...

DRAMA

DRAMA -- this is why I don't associate with family except in the casual way!

Now lets see how hard it is to type this up with my long nails LOL!


I got a text from Kristi this morning telling me to call if I was up, since I was -- ring, ring! This is how 95% of all the drama in my family starts! (the phone, not Kristi..........although......LOL!)

She says "Your Mom told me not to say anything but I didn't want you mad at me later so I'm telling you anyway." (famous last words LOL!)

now pay attention cause if you don't then you'll get lost! I ALMOST did and I know the people!

Jenny & Dotty (cousins) told Arlene (their mom & my aunt) who then got mad too and told Grandma to tell my Mom to tell Kristi (my sil) to tell me that -- they wanted me to take their F'ing pictures off my facebook, didn't I know that was dangerous?

SERIOUSLY??!!??!!

1. and foremost -- I have every legal right to post any pictures that I have copyright to anywhere I want. In fact I can do any little thing I want with them -- even sell them! And there ain't a FREAKING thing you can do about it.
2. Did you honestly believe that as a graphic design artist I wouldn't know copyright law? Everyone in the family has no problem bringing their digital image issues for me to fix so it's not a secret by any means. Oh, I know, because none of you actually make sure your doing something the CORRECT way, I'm the same -- NOT! 
3. The pictures in question are over 20 years old!
4. The pictures are not of them in compromising attire or positions  - not that it would change my copyright ownership!
5. The pictures are also not labeled with their full names, not that it matters.
6. My brother and I are included in each picture -- duh the whole point in WHY I posted them.
7. If the message had to be sent via the grape vine at least it could have been a polite one! Tone of voice and choice of words really does play a part of how people CHOOSE to deal with you.

And the most important thing to mention --- if you SEEN them on my facebook then that means you could have commented and said it your damn self! If your so damn ballsy to send a whiny demand through some one else then you should of stepped up! bring. it. on.

Also, I find it hilarious that people who are completely noobs are attempting to tell me about what is dangerous online!  I know that I'm no expert and could make a wrong choice with the things that I post online but I have been doing this for over 10 years I know for a FACT that I am far more intelligent than ANY of you on security and privacy issues online.

And I have something for everyone who likes to go talking to tell my Grandma since she wanted to make the comment to my Mom - "why is it I always have to hear about all the problems your kids are causing"   She obviously has me messed up in her mind with one of the other mess ups within that family. She has NEVER had anyone telling her something about me EVER. remember - I'm not a mess up!



Because everyone in that family obviously hasn't picked up on it - let me say it as plainly as I can -- the ONLY thing we share is blood. I don't care about or participate in your mafia style of family life. I. AM. DONE.

I have been for sometime. couldn't you tell? that's right you don't care HA!

NONE of you people wanted to help me when I needed it most although I have attempted to extend the same to you. NONE of you even bothered to CARE about my life or welfare EVER. So I refuse to care about you as well. (look up the word welfare to fully understand it, it doesn't just mean a check from the government!)

so.

Now that I have internalized the rest of what I wanted to say - with the words I want to use but can't because I don't want to offend others, I'll end this.

Especially since I now do not have two free hands because one of the great things I've learned from this great family is -- when the going gets rough pick up something, pick anything as long as it's unhealthy. So as I pick up yet another bag of chips to shove down hurt feelings and the feeling of rejection from what are supposed to be my loved ones -- think of this (if your from my family) -- what is it you pick up that heals these problems? a bottle? a baggie? a cheap date?

Whatever you do don't pick up the phone to call me cause you don't have my number & I won't answer! Plus it's just RUDE to eat while on the phone =)

later...






Links for the education of others on this post -

•  a blog post on my mafia family (http://weirdanne.blogspot.com/2008/09/you-know-what-i-am-continually-shocked.html)

• Statement of Rights and Responsibilities (http://www.facebook.com/help/?page=831#!/terms.php)
• How to Appeal Claims of Copyright Infringement (http://www.facebook.com/legal/copyright.php?howto_appeal=1)
• Digital Millennium Copyright Act (DMCA) Wiki - (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Digital_Millennium_Copyright_Act) 
• US Copyright Office FAQ's - look at last question explains alot (http://www.copyright.gov/help/faq/faq-fairuse.html)

new recipe - fish tacos

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Now I'm not sure if many people know this or not but Darkside & I don't like eating fish. So we make ourselves eat it about 4 times a year for the sake of the kids. Usually just fish sticks or a beer battered fish fillet.

But last year Long John Silver's had that whole promo for a free Baja fish taco, that changed everything! Had they only gave us one we might of not fell in love but nope they gave us 2 each! We were in love. But that still didn't do too much to change things cause that just meant I had to go buy them -- not make them. Till last week.

So here's the recipe we tried Fish Tacos with Chipotle Sauce which I knew was going to be great - all of hers are great! Of course we did things different =) Here's the recipe & our changes:

1st - she fried her fish herself, we used frozen fish fillets -- this is because of funds available, next time I will try frying my own. We did cook the fillets with the Old Bay seasoning though to mirror what she used

1/2 cup sour cream ---- we used 1/2 cup of sour cream, mayo, & plain yogurt  (we're saucy LOL!)
1 Tbsp lime juice --- we used 3 Tbsp
several spoons of adobe sauce from the chipotle peppers - too much for us! plus it didn't have much sauce
cilantro -- NO!! I hate it!
slaw mix -- we already had some shredded cabbage so we used that
corn tortillas - we used flour tortillas
shredded cheddar cheese - yep! =)

later...